Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 11, 2007 18:24:16 GMT -5
I nodded my agreement silently, slowly. I remembered nights without food after saying the wrong thing, making the wrong assumption. The next day, being treated like royalty once more, like nothing had ever happened. And yet, through it all, the frigid solitude of having no one to talk to.
I bit my lip, warding memories away. I noticed Kakashi's silence then. "So... what're you thinking about?" It was the best way to get rid of the plagueing silence.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Apr 13, 2007 20:04:53 GMT -5
Oh, erm, nothing.
I muttered, fiddling with the sheet, unsure if I should ask my question or not. I looked around the room, trying to find a different object of conversation. A burst of lightning broke my thoughts, leaving me staring blankly at the ceiling.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 15, 2007 11:25:40 GMT -5
"Oh." I found it hard to believe he wasn't thinking about anything, not only because this was basically impossible, but because I had a feeling we were thinking the same thing. I closed my eyes against the lightning, holding my breath during the thunder. I released the air held in my lungs slowly once it had passed, filling them up again just as slowly.
"...You want me to see your future, don't you?" I asked slowly, my voice low. If he did, what was I supposed to do? Tell him sorry, but I didn't feel comfortable doing it because I'd probably see him die? Or do it anyway for my own benefit, then lie about what I saw?
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Apr 15, 2007 12:05:38 GMT -5
Well, uh... yeah, I guess I do.
I replied in a low voice, resisting the urge to look at her. That would probably just make things more uncomfortable then they already were, which would be quiet an accomplishment.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
Posts: 244
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 15, 2007 17:18:05 GMT -5
I sighed heavily, trying to decide what to do. My eyelids covered my eyes as my mind seperated the pros and the cons. Finally, I sat up, turning to face Kakashi. There was less room to move this way, but I didn't notice I was on the brink of falling over the bed. I crossed my legs, breathing slowly.
"You know you might not like what I see, right?" It was more of a statement than a question. But I felt obligated to warn him nonetheless.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Apr 15, 2007 17:36:49 GMT -5
Most of my life has been spent dealing with things I don't like, one more thing won't change that.
I replied, turning my head to watch her. I sat up, uncertain of what I had to do. This was all just a bit awkward.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
Posts: 244
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 16, 2007 7:09:21 GMT -5
I've tried before, but it's almost impossible for me to prepare myself for a premonition. It's not that I don't know what to do, it's just that I don't know where to start. There was too much to do for me to properly center myself; it'd probably take me a good few days.
My insides churned. I was nervous. My premonitions were probably always associated with anxious anticipation; as a child, they had been bad. They made me different. In Nicondae, they were a weapon, and if I interpreted it wrong, as Kakashi had said, there was always hell to pay. I closed my eyes, trying to remember to breathe.
Thunder. I almost fell off the bed, but I caught myself at the last minute. Meditation obviously wasn't a good thing to do during a storm. "Whatever you do," I warned, staring at Kakashi heavily, "don't let me fall." I didn't even want to think about what would happen if I did happen to fall over the edge. I would probably be knocked out as a result, and from there I might be caught in my premonition.
I bit my lip uneasily, tugging it into my mouth and gnawing it between my teeth sharply. As if underwater, I slowly offered my hand to Kakashi palm up. "Take my hand and don't let go, okay?"
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Apr 17, 2007 19:49:25 GMT -5
I tried to smile reassuringly, but it was a strange feeling for me, and was surprisingly hard to do. So many years behind a mask, I had gotten used to not bothering to portray emotions. People look at your eyes when you talk, but they also rely on facial expressions. Unable to show things like a smile or frown, I'd learned how to portray it all in my eyes, and hide it all as well. In many ways, my mask was a blessing, especially when it came to poker games. But now, without my safety measure, and now when I was just about to jump into something as big as learning my future, whatever it was, I felt naked. The world was closing in on me, and I was now without my last defense.
I won't, I promise.
I replied, reaching forward. I paused for a moment, trying to ready myself for what Ailiana might tell me, but I realized that was impossible, and this entire thing was uncontrollable, So, I snatched up her hands, closing my eyes and squeezing her hand tightly.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 19, 2007 18:17:42 GMT -5
I took a deep, sharp breath; like the kind someone takes before being thrown deep into the ocean. For a moment, I imagined the salty taste in my mouth, the stinging in my nostrils. My closed eyes began to ache underneath the eyelids, and then, just as quickly as it came, it passed.
I opened my eyes slowly, carefully. It was dark. Very dark. Gooseflesh crept up my arms, even though I knew I was completely safe; no one could see me. I could only see them. It was safe to say I wasn't even there to everyone else.
I heard ragged breaths. I was snapped out of my temporary trance to see Kakashi. Running. Very fast, very chaotically. It wasn't hard to tell that he was running from something. Or someone.
Hoofbeats pounded behind him, and they were steadily catching up. Kakashi breezed past me, and I followed, not wanting to miss anything. And yet, at the same time, I did. I wanted to run the other way, maybe tell Kakashi it hadn't worked, I hadn't seen anything.
And then he was cut off by someone on an enormous horse. He tried to dart around it, but the dark animal only cut him off, tossing its big head at the cruel bite of the bit. I noticed it eye me, but I didn't know if it saw me; perhaps it could see me. The man on the horse mumbled something to Kakashi, to which he grumbled something back. I had been too preoccupied with the horse to listen, to be honest.
And then I saw it. Someone creeping up behind him. I knew whoever it was, his intentions probably weren't good, but I also knew there was nothing I could do. My eyes flicked down the dark alleyway, hoping maybe some bystander would walk by, take notice, run for help. No such luck.
More people. Narrowing my eyes, I noticed Sladick's insignia and swore under my breath. One man began to speak to Kakashi under his breath. Kakashi looked ready to spit in the soldier's face.
Why couldn't I hear anything?! This wasn't normal, that was for certain. Typically, my premonitions were razor sharp. This one was... it was almost fuzzy. Faded. Before I could put two and two together, though, someone else was behind Kakashi, holding a dagger at his throat.
Not good. They said something else, something about Kakashi following. There was no threat spoken, but judging by the dagger, it was definitely implied.
I waited to see what Kakashi would do. But then I felt it again. My body went cold, like my insides were flooding. I gulped, trying to fight against it. I wanted... no, I needed to see what was going to happen. "No," I mumbled. The horse snorted, throwing its head up and dancing on its hooves, making a beat on the stone beneath them. The feeling grew stronger. I clapped my hands over my ears in a feeble attempt, but it was no use.
I felt my body being dragged back to the present.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Apr 24, 2007 19:18:58 GMT -5
I gripped her arms tightly, making sure she didn't fall backward. I opened my eyes, staring at her, unsure of what I should say.
Are you alright?
I asked, wanting to make sure she wasn't hurt. I imagined doing something like telling the future put quite a strain on the body.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
Posts: 244
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 26, 2007 6:54:03 GMT -5
I opened my mouth and eyes at the same time, sucking as much freezing air into my lungs as possible. This induced a fit of coughing on my part, and I took my hand out of Kakashi's tight grasp. and put it on my chest as if it would calm me. I tried to speak between coughs. "I'm... okay..."
No, actually, I felt like crap. But I wasn't about to say that to him; it wasn't like there was anything he could do about it. I closed my mouth to try and trap the coughing and swallowed, opening my lips again to breathe once more. I took my other hand and pointed at him, trying to think of something to say while focusing on breathing.
Something had been wrong with my vision. I had never returned like this before; coughing, out of breath. Okay, maybe out of breath. But not this much. I felt like I'd just run a couple of miles, same speed, nonstop.
I still couldn't think of what to say. So I only kept pointing at Kakashi, kept staring at him. It was too late now to withdraw my finger and make it look like an accident, too. I bit my lip. Suddenly, I wasn't too keen on telling Kakashi my vision. I curled my finger back into a fist, hoping maybe he hadn't noticed it waving in his face.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on May 4, 2007 15:29:23 GMT -5
I raised an eyebrow, trying to interprit the slowly disappearing finger. I just couldn't.
Was it... was it bad?
I asked uncertainly, not sure if I wanted to know the answer now. What if it was horrible? Like the King captured me... or what if it was to wonderful for her to describe? Nah, probably the whole torture thing.
I wasn't feeling very optimistic, as one might be able to tell.
Are... are you sure you're ok? Does this happen every time?
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on May 4, 2007 21:34:14 GMT -5
No, it didn't happen all the time. But I certainly wasn't about to say that. "...Yeah," I gulped. "Happens a lot."
I conjured a glass of water in my hand with a mutter of a magical word, quickly gulping it down. Better. But I was still confused to no end. "It wasn't... great," I began. "I mean, I didn't see the end."
I was talking about it like it was sort of book or something, I realized. "You... were running. From Soldiers. But they cut you off. And... while you were talking to this one guy... someone else crept behind you and..." I made mixed hand motions before realizing I wasn't making any sense. "He had a dagger to your neck, basically. And they made you go with them, saying Rutherford wanted to talk and... you went."
Realization dawned on my face. Slowly, very slowly, I put two and two together. "...We can change it, though," I said softly, my eyes far away.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on May 6, 2007 19:56:24 GMT -5
I turned my eyes away from her, noticing for the first time the wind had died down, and the thunder lightened. It had been a couple of hours, the storm was passing over us. That didn't make me feel any better right now, though. Not at all.
Are you sure?
I whispered weakly, glancing at her out of the corner of my eye. Could we really change that? I didn't have much confidence. I never did when it came to changing things.
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Ailiana (Onora)
Queen's Army
Lord of All That is Fuzzy
Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
Posts: 244
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on May 6, 2007 20:03:04 GMT -5
I bit my lip, looking around the room. This was always a hard thing to explain. I struggled to put the right words together. "My visions are like..." My eyes hit a corner of the room, completely enshrouded in darkness. "They're like shadows," I finished simply, continuing. "They aren't the real thing. Just... what might be. You can't completely distinguish it, it's always... moving, conforming with the sun." I frowned. Now that it was out of my mouth, that didn't make any sense.
I shook the feeling off, turning to Kakashi. "But there's something that wasn't in your vision," I gushed, pointing at him again, then pointing at myself. My voice was eager now. "Me. I wasn't in your vision. So if we could some how... I don't know, change that so that I'm with you, I could go to Nicondae with you and bust you out or... or some thing like that."
It was a long shot. A very long shot. But that didn't damper my hopes, for some reason.
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