Ailiana (Onora)
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 12, 2007 17:40:59 GMT -5
My mouth fell open at this statement. I looked over at Kalia once more, hoping she didn't mean what she said. "What are you saying, exactly?" I snapped. "I was just trying to get by."
That partially it. I had fled to Nicondae hoping for some help. A fifteen year old girl couldn't do much to survive without taking extreme measurements I wasn't interested in taking.
But I had also been looking for acceptance. I had wanted to feel useful. I sighed, throwing my head back and propping it up against the tree. What did she want to do? Apologize?
I had a feeling that if that was what she wanted, it wasn't going to happen.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 12, 2007 18:02:19 GMT -5
Kalia slowly looked at Ailiana, her eyes churning cold. "I'm not saying anything." Her tone was calm and cold. "You have your reasons not to tell me everything, and I have mine, there for I have no intention of appologizing." Cold air blew in ruffling her hair over her face, Kalia used that as an excuse to close her eyes. This girl has no clue...
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 12, 2007 19:01:07 GMT -5
So maybe I had been thinking this was all about me. And maybe this wasn't abnormal of me. Everyone had their secrets, it occured to me. My own apology brewed in my mouth, stampeding on my tongue. But I remained silent, defiant. It was as someone had poked holes in my throat; I wanted to say something. Really, I did. But I just... I just couldn't.
I rolled my head to the side so it rested on my shoulder lifelessly. I took slow, deep breaths, trying to clear my mind. Slowly, I opened an eye. "We should probably get going again," I said, shrugging my pack back on. The last thing I wanted was another run in with one of Sladick's soldiers.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 12, 2007 19:05:37 GMT -5
Kalia nodded and got up. "Alright." She didn't wish to say more, to her it seemed that Ailiana might have noticed something about her attitude change...Maybe she even saw some of the things Kalia sees...That frieghtened her.
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 12, 2007 19:35:07 GMT -5
I didn't say anything. What was there to say? Instead, I adjusted my pack and started off, my feet digging into the mud. The rain pounded against me, and I silently wondered if there was a way to turn off your nerve cells so you couldn't feel.
I stopped. I didn't know where I was going. I turned around, staring at Kalia. "Um... lead the way," I said, motioning for her to take her place ahead of me.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 12, 2007 20:00:57 GMT -5
Kalia stood for a moment looking back, but senced Ailiana's eyes on her and churned. With a smile she ran to where the girl was and started going again. "Sorry I was just lost in thought...Happens...I think we might comming soon, in a few days to the heart of the forest/swamp and from there it won't be long to the end." That is if we reach the end...
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 13, 2007 17:11:01 GMT -5
I shrugged off her comment. "Happens to everyone," I said in agreement. "Happens to me all the time."
It was nice for the actual previous conversation to have been forgotten, but I knew it wasn't so. At least, not with me. The guilt of making the wrong decision chewed at my heart, making me feel queasy. I swallowed, feeling like something was lodged in my throat, blocking it.
I cleared my throat apprehensively, fiddling with my fingers in front of me. "So... spare time. What do you do in your spare time?"
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 13, 2007 17:33:22 GMT -5
"Um, let's see...I shoot, and throw knifes, Sometimes I dance, or just hang out somewhere...But mostly I travel." Kalia smiled as she thought. "How about you?"
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 15, 2007 10:16:16 GMT -5
Dance? I almost shuddered with happiness at the word. Dancing meant balls, an activity Sladick allowed me to enjoy, and that I enjoyed myself. An activity where I could laugh, smile, and actually mean what I was doing. There were plenty of things he wouldn't let me do; dancing, luckily, was not one of them, so I associated it with joy and freedom.
"I draw," I said with relative ease. "Primarily... you know, people. When they don't expect it. I like to see the honest picture, not a model posing in a fake world." I shrugged, stepping over a gnarled root just before my foot hooked around it and I fell on the ground. Close call, nice catch. One more opportunity to humiliate myself avoided.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 15, 2007 13:25:33 GMT -5
Kalia smiled. "I draw a little too, but I'm not good at it so I manage to drawocean, or the sky, people and animals well...That's another story." Then she stoped and looked around. Wait, I don't remember this part of the woods... But then quickly whent on to the right.
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 15, 2007 17:25:40 GMT -5
I tried to ignore it, partially just to assure myself that all was well. But it was hard to hide my concern. No, not concern. More like irritation that I didn't know where I was going. Again.
"...We're lost, aren't we?" I accused Kalia, my eyes narrowed.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 15, 2007 18:28:50 GMT -5
Kalia didn't face Ailiana. "Well...Kind of, I know the direction we need to go in, and we're going there, I just don't recognize the surroundings. But I mean last time I was here was who know's how long ago, the landscape might have changed..."
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 16, 2007 7:15:04 GMT -5
Could you even be kind of of lost? I found it hard to believe. I stared at Kalia increduously, making a concerned face. Putting my head in my hands, I tried to contain a groan of irritation. "No way," I mumbled. "No way."
It was surprising that I had gone with Kalia to get... un-lost or whatever, only to find myself lost once more. Just great. "How many days till we're out of here again?" I asked, pulling my head up from my hands with effort.
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Apr 16, 2007 14:38:43 GMT -5
"Hey! Don't critisize me! We're not lost...I know where we need to go, I know exactly where we need to go, just not exactly this area...besides, with out me you would be even more lost!" Kalia pointed out.
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Ailiana (Onora)
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Remember to never eat a Hooblesnorflessness.
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Post by Ailiana (Onora) on Apr 17, 2007 16:58:01 GMT -5
I shrugged, avoiding eye contact. I had never been good with apologies or admitting I was wrong. Another character flaw upon many. My eyes fanned over the dim horizon; nothing more than mud, muddy water, gnarly trees.
It wasn't the best mood brightening scenery. I sighed, thinking about the boring times that would await while here. "So..." Kneeling down, I plucked up a leaf from a weed, running my fingers over the intricate veining before losing interest and tossing it over my shoulder.
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