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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 3, 2007 0:08:07 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
Would I really be free? I wondereed oif she was right, if this was my only ticket to freedom. How long could I really run? Would it not always be obviuse who I am, the black mask conceal the one thing only my mother and father had ever laid eyes on? So many years of being careful, of hding beneath the plack abyss, could I simply pull it off my face and reach to my freedom? What about the inner demon, would the mask release me from his grip. No, but there was some freedom to be had.
I paused, lifting my eyes to the sky with a solemn expresiion, tilting my head back to feel the breeze. What did it truely feel like? Would it be different, if it touched my whole face, if it chilled it to the bone? Would a smile become part of me, a thing I could use to show how I truly felt, what I was really thinking? The window to the soul is the eyes, but a smile can warm even the coldest room.
What a change that would be, hmm?
I muttered, running my hand carefully over the fabric, slowly inching it to the top.
A radical change. For a day.
I turned back to Kalia, and I smiled, the crooked grin spreading over my face. The wind touch my bare cheeks, a sensation which brought out old, kind memories. For a day I would be Kakashi Hatake, and not just a shadow int eh mist. For a day, I would be free. Just for a day.
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Post by Kalia on Mar 3, 2007 0:18:42 GMT -5
My face spread in a wide smile. "How does that feel?" I asked. Looking over his features. "Well...your not the ghost I thought you were..." I stared at the ground slightly blushing he had a funny smile. I couldn't stop laughing. Even tears showed at my eyes...but for a different reason. This is what I am. This is what I do. I quickly wiped them away not wanting to show my weak side. "I guess you shared something hidden for years with me...i guess I could, or rather should do the same. I think you could ask me, any question...Although knowing guys...Almost any question. You need to be in the sun more...Your pale.." I smiled, hoping he didn't hear the part before that. Suddently I wondered if he'll be one of those very few people who knew me...not the masks, but me...I looked away from him, and lifted my eyes to the sky, hopping he didn't see anything in them. Atleast till the time came...but I won't let my thoughts, my memories destroi this day...but one question kept playing in my head. Why me? Those two words held so much meaning...she wiped away another tear away. "I'm sorry...I don't mean to cry...I'm just happy for you."I whispered, smiling. Slowly feeling the ice surounding my heart beging to melt, and the world taking colors all around me. Not those dull colors...But bright colors full of hope, the colors I saw only when I was a small child. And somewhere, in the back of my mind, I had a horrible feeling, that I was cursed. Once something good happens...something that gives me hope...then suddenly it vanishes...I fear that.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 3, 2007 19:16:20 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
I simply smiled at her, resisting the urge to wipe away the tear which lingered on her cheek. I could feel there was much history behind those eyes, behind her gentle features. Somewhere inside of her lay her true self, and I wanted to find her. I didn't know why, but it felt like it was important. Today was not a black sunrise, today was a sunrise with all the colors, pale hues blending together like a new rainbow. It wasn't often I felt a dawn like this.
You know what? Let's do something different today. A day for change, right? You've convinced me to take off my mask, now, what is that you want to do? It's only fair, don't you think?
I replied with a sly, replacing my hands in their pockets.
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 3, 2007 19:24:45 GMT -5
I thought for a moment. "Well...concidering that I'm new in this place...and, seems like you've been here for some time now...But hey...I didn't convince you to take it off...Did I?" I asked a bit confused. "But any ways, how about we do what you want...Since your the one that once a change. Besides I'm out of ideas...never was one with them...so like I said, you have my premision to choose." I did a little bow, just as a joke. "Oh, great master of Change!" Suddenly after i said that i figured he will probly do something to get back at me...Oh, well, why not? For once in my life I could loosen up a bit around someone.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 5, 2007 22:06:40 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
Master, eh?
I wondered for a moment, looking down both roads with curiousety. Normally I would have pointed out that I was just as new here as she was, but I didn't want to spoil that whole "master" thing.
Well, uh, based on the sun's line of... of risinging... ness, I do believe that a north westish heading would serve our purposes the best, according to how the stars are aligned... today.
Note to self: Don't try to sound smart, it just makes you sound stupider.
In other words, let's go right.
I muttered.
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 6, 2007 5:31:22 GMT -5
I chuckled, but managed not to start laughing. Because if that happened I wouldn't be able to stop...How ever. Appereantly he doesn't have a clue where were going...But he was sounding stupid, yet it was cute in some way... "Lead the way!" Then I added seeing that he liked being called master. "Master of long-figuring-out-which-way-we-must-go." I quickly added...but in the end I got tongue-tied while trying to say the name clearly. So when I at last got finished I burst out into laughter. And looked away hopping he wouldn't notice the blush. A realization slowly came over me...I have not laughed like this in...I struggle to even tell how long! But the Ice seems to be melting, and Kakashi seems to be getting over some of his problems and things that bother him...So I guess this "Advanture" Could work out...Watch everything go wrong right as everything starts to go in it's place...Enough of that for today...Today is the day of change! Hopefully for more then just him...
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 12, 2007 20:53:25 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
Yes, I shall, oh lady-who-can't-speak-long-titles-well.
I replied, making sure not to stumble over the words myself.
It wasn't long till we came to another cross roads, and I stood in the middle of the street, dodging the few stray wagons which rolled by. This was going to be challenging.
Um... well, um... If I choose the road, how about you choose what we,,, what we do?
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 13, 2007 4:44:25 GMT -5
"Um..." Kalia shook her head. "I'm, kind of bad at choosing what to do..." Partialy because I didn't have a normal child hood, and was isolated from the people. "But I'll try...It all depends on what they have in the city..." Last time Kalia had fun in the city she was at the shooting range with one of her clients...If you can call them that. She looked around. "It also depends on what you like doing..." She smiled.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 13, 2007 20:20:39 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
Oh, I'm wiling to do anything. Just choose it, and I'll do it.
I said with a smile, motioning around at all the roads. In fact, I was spinning, and by doing so, I gained more then just a few slightly disturbed stairs. Interesting, this would be a good tactic to get out of something. Just make everyone think you're insane, which shouldn't be to hard for me.
And, as far as I know, they've got everything in this city.
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 14, 2007 10:13:47 GMT -5
"Everything?" Kalia's face paled a little. "Anyhow, who are you trying to convince that your insane?" She laughed getting her color back. "But anyways...wanna go to a shooting range? I have a bunch of knifes, and I bet we can get bows from them. What do you say?"
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 18, 2007 11:58:31 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
A shooting range sounds like fun. I could use some practice, anyway. I say, the person who hits the bullseye the most gets to choose where we go next.
I replied, choosing to ignore the insanity comment. Mind readers are tricky people to be around. I probably should have tried something like counting numbers, but I was beyond the point of caring now, and I couldn't really count past 50, anyway.
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 18, 2007 12:01:45 GMT -5
"Yep we are tricky!" Kalia smiled and laughed. "Note to self...Let you win!" She shook her head and started spining. "You lead the way!" She said. "Why would you want to count to 50? And why couldn't you?" She asked stoping because she got dizzy. Kalia looked at Kakashi for a moment then grabed on to the wall to keep her self from falling down. "Spinning...Not my thing..." She mumbled.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 18, 2007 14:09:42 GMT -5
=Against my will I stand beside my own reflection= =Its haunting how I can’t seem to find myself again=
I gripped her arm, watching her worriedly. What was wrong? Had she used her power to much? That must be it, I hoped it was that simple...
Hey, are you alright? Maybe you should hold back the mind reading thing...
I asked, not letting go of her arm. Fear slipped through me, and I tightened my grip slightly. She had to get better, she had to be ok...
=There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing= =This lack of self control I fear is never ending=
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Kalia
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Post by Kalia on Mar 18, 2007 14:55:25 GMT -5
Kalia came back to her sences and used her free arm to pat Kakashi on the shoulder. "Chill, I'm alright. And no, I didn't use to much of my power...yet...So don't worry and do not be afraid...I just over spined...Funny, I could never spin with out getting dizy...So now if you don't mind you are hurting me for the second time today." she smiled trying to lighten up the atmosphere. "Besides why were you worried? It's not like we're going to be attacked this very moment..." She quickly added. But to the question Why? She had a theory but wanted to conferm it.
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Post by Daemon [Naryae] on Mar 19, 2007 15:07:46 GMT -5
=Maybe this time tomorrow, the rain with cease to follow= =And the mist will fade into one more today=
I let go of her arm, drawing back in embarresment, my cheeks turning red. Usually I wouldn't have worried about that, but today was anything but usual.
Oh, um, sorry about that.
I muttered, thinking through how to tackled her question. All the people I met had such pesky questions.
It's just, usually everyone I care about dies, or, well, er, I'm not saying I care about you, but well, no I don't hate you, but I don't want you to think that, I'm, well, in love with you. I mean, we just met, and al, that would be sudden, and well, I'm not really, you know, It's just...
Deep breath, clear mind, sane answer. Well, sane-er.
I'm just tired of loosing people.
I finished, regaining control of my mind.
=Cause the road keeps on telling me to go on= =Something is pulling me, I feel the gravity of it all=
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